why can’t I be an alcoholic or drug addict?

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Why can’t I be an alcoholic or a drug addict?!

It would be easier to give up alcohol and drugs!
People would be more understanding if I was an alcoholic or drug addict!
I could be out having a good time, alcohol and drugs are fun!
I would be so skinny!
I can LIVE without alcohol and drugs!

This is some of the crazy shit I have thought or said as a compulsive overeater!

How could I ever give up food?!

Food is a vital part of my social occasions, celebrations, heart-breaks, and all of the sweet and sad moments in-between!
Food eases my boredom and entertains me!
Food is fun to cook, and when shared with others, fills me with joy and love!
Food is there when no one else is around!
Food is always the best gift, a well-deserved reward, and the perfect ending to every day!

This is some of the crazy shit I have believed as a compulsive overeater!

I love food and I love eating, and having to remove some of the foods I enjoy has been the hardest thing I have ever done, it is also the most liberating. If I could have chosen my addiction, knowing what I know now, I would have gratefully chosen food addiction…I AM A GRATEFUL COMPULSIVE OVEREATER!

From what I have witnessed, alcohol and drug addictions are destructive, not only to the addict, but also to everyone that surrounds them; parents, children, friends, spouses, employers and complete strangers will at some point feel the destructive blow-back.

I am a food addict/compulsive overeater and I am also destructive, but the majority of my destruction happens directly to me. My family, friends, husband and employers have all been affected by my addiction; they have been concerned and worried about my weight, my health, my energy and stamina and my overall well-being, but my food addictions and compulsive overeating primarily harms me.

I have a family member who has recently completed rehab for his alcoholism, as a fellow addict in recovery, I am whole-heartedly rooting for his sobriety. The damage he has done to himself and those closest to him is daunting – he has ruined a 30 year professional career, he has serious legal issues, he has lost his home, he has strained his relationship with his family and children, and his wife is preparing to leave him, because if she doesn’t the stress is going to kill her!

OA has fundamentally changed my outlook on addiction. I no longer wish for what I thought would be an easier addiction, there is no such thing as easier, all we can hope for is the damage left around us be as minimal as possible. My empathy for addicts is truly sincere, no matter what their drug of choice may be…together we get better!

The loss of this bright and beautiful soul effected the world.  For me, I had been in OA for two months and I was really starting to understand addiction and addicts, when I learned of Robin Williams death I found myself heartbroken, for the first time in my life I could relate in a small way to the demons he had been battling.  Our brightest lights can be extinguished in the blink of an eye when addiction and depression take hold.

Godspeed Robin…I know you are making God laugh!

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3 comments

  1. Isabel · June 26, 2015

    Now here I thought I was the only one who thought it is more socially accepted to be drug addict or alcoholic than someone who struggles with overeater. I absolutely believe that overeating is a disease or sickness both mentally and physically. Eating is the center around so many pertinent moments in our lives, day to day. Not to add that I have a metabolism that is on permanent life support. ❤

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  2. ‘If I were a drug addict, I would be so skinny!’ Haha, made my day. Thanks for the insight. Very nicely worded!

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  3. Victoria B. · June 30, 2015

    It is not all that glamorous. The problem is that as alcoholics we crash cars, steal money, get arrested, lose jobs, ruin our family and destroy our looks. I was not allowed to see the birth of my niece and nephew and I will never get that back. And don’t forget the calories in booze it puts an an extra 40-69 pounds on a girl. And if you go the meth route your teeth will fall out, your hair gets thin and your skin looks gross.

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